I did it <3

Hey Everyone,

 

I am sure your wondering what I did, and I know there were many mixed thoughts about it . But what a lot of people don't understand is that I am not the same person I was when I left.  This whole trip has changed me into a new person.  Yesterday I shaved all my hair off and guess what I AM BEAUTIFUL WITH OUT HAIR.  Hair is just something that people use to hide themselves. I am beautiful from the core inside me all the way to the tips of my fingures and hair has nothing to do with that.  I love my new look, I think I look amazing.  The feeling I had as they were snipping off my pony tail was  this is it. and then when they were shaving my head it was I DID IT!  I was so proud of myself. We all know that Amy listens to everyone else all the time becuase she cares about what everyone else thinks about her and never wants to upset anyone. BUT, I now for the first time in my life . DONT CARE what anyone thinks of me. Or if anyone wants to make fun of me, or if people don't agree or if people think I look bad or ugly and why I don't care is I finally found my own self confidence that noone ever thought I would find and I am so proud of myself.  i understand everyone's thoughts on when I get home that life will be different when your not around 25 other girls that did it. But I have been a stranger and uncomfortable in every country so far becuase we are different then all of these cultures. So when I get back into America I will still be differnt. But this time. It doesn't matter.  Yesterday was the happiest I have been IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE! If you ask my mother or father I called them and both of them heard it in my voice. I have never been this happy and proud to be who I am. I know  Boys will look at me and say that girls ugly she has no hair .But any boy that can't see the real me with out hair and see that I am a beautiful person with or without hair is not even worth my time.  If someone is embaressed to walk next to me becuase I shaved my head. Then shame on them, I am who I am and I know my friends and family soley understand that. I understand taht I am going to be an outsidier in my home that people are going to assume I have cancer or I will go through the stage of hair where I look like a dike. Thats okay becasue I know what I am and I know who I am. I have a story to tell anyone who wants to know.

 

I want everyone to know how proud of myself I truely am. I am a beautiful person and I had reasons to do this. It was like everyone said one of the most empowering things ever!  Yesterday was a new beginning and I LOVE THE NEW ME . I Woke up this morning and eveyrone said if your going to regret it then next morning you will wake up and be like what did I do. I woke up this morning and I said " DAMMMMMN I LOOK HOTT! " becuase I do. My eyes stick out so much and the blue in my eyes sticks out even more.

 

I hope you all understand and support me and I can't wait to hear from all of you. If you don't agree I am sorry but ultimately my happiness matters over everything and LIke i said ask my dad and my mother I have never sounded so happy!

 

I love you all  and I will post a picutre as soon as I can. OR I will let you all wait and see! haha

 

Love you

 

Amy